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Just a short comment on me trying to upload a new photo for my buddyslim page.  This darn thing keeps telling me that the image is too big…..like I didn’t already know that…..lmao!!!!  Does anyone have any ideas on how to make me smaller…..well at least my picture for the time being??!!  Hope everyone of you is doing well this week.  It is a new month lets all make the most of it.  Wishing everyone continued success on this thing we call life.

Well, since I wrote my last blog about totally losing it just a few days ago……I have almost totally found it again.  I started eating right and drank all my water, so today I thought what the heck I will just see if it has made any difference at all…..meaning is this really worth all the effort.  Well, needless to say I am now back to where I was before my little vacation from my healthy lifestyle change.  YES IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE.  In just a few days I have made it back.   Thanks to all of you who commented on my last blog and who have supported me from day one. 

I am sitting here reading blogs and crying.  I have totally lost all motivation.  Everyday I wake up and say today is the day to jump back on the wagon…..shoot today it lasted all of an hour or so.  Ever since I went out of town with hubby for his birthday I have totally let healthy living walk right out the door.  It is 8a and I already had three plain donuts and a sliver of cake my daughter and sister made yesterday.  What is wrong with me???!!!  It has been almost a month now….thank God I have only gained back 6lbs.  I keep telling myself that my life is so crazy now that I just can’t fit in healthy eating, exercise, and water.  What excuses we can make when donuts are staring us in the face, huh?!  I just had to get this off my mind.  I still have a whole day left and am gonna try and make the most of it.  I am so glad to see all of you sticking to plan and your goals.  I hope everyone continues to have great successes on this thing we call weight loss.  God Bless!!

I have been non existent for the past two weeks at least here in Buddy Slim land.  In those two weeks I think I have gained close to 10lbs….I don’t know for sure I am to scared to step on the scale.  I have realized reading through some of the blogs that my friends here really needed me for support, but even more I really needed them.  Nothing dramatic has happened….I haven’t lost my job, had loved ones hospitalized, or even gotten a divorce from my hubby……and still I couldn’t be here.  I have let my WildCat teammates down, my friends here, and most of all I have let ME down.  When in these last two weeks did I decide I was not worth the joy of being healthy???!!!   I am so ashamed and embarrassed of all my actions these last two weeks.  I truely am sorry and apologize to everyone for my lapse in healthy living.  Tomorrow is a new day and I vow to make the most of it.  I hope everyone is doing well and is having continued succes on their weight loss journies.  We all are so worth it…….I just forgot for a minute.

Well, today my oldest son turns 13.  I am so amazed. Where did all that time go.  So, last night I was laying in my bed just crying and Ken asked what was wrong.  I was like my baby is going to be 13 and he said makes you feel old don’t it.  I was like that isn’t even it.  I have come to the realization over the past year that he is growing up so fast.  It wasn’t that I felt older it was that I felt less needed.  I was a single mom for a long time and my kids and I are very close just due to situations that have happened in our lives.  I know that I have to let him grow up, but I don’t want too.  I pray that I have been a good mom and given him everything that he needs to make the right choices.  He is such a good young man and I am so proud of him.  I know that the teenage years are going to be rough for both of us and I pray daily for the guidance and patience to help us both make it through.  I guess the reason I say that this blog has to do with my weight loss a little is because my kids are one reason I wanted to lose weight.  I want to be a healthy role model for one, but another reason is that I want them to be active in school and I want to be right there with them building floats and decorating for prom.  I don’t want them to be embarrassed, because their mom is “fat.”  Anyways, today my Chauncey is 13. 

I have been reading some blogs this morning.  Some people seem to be struggling more than others.  I just wanted to make a quick comment in general.  We are all so worth having a happy, wonderful, and healthy life.  Sometimes I know it seems so far away shoot I have the same thoughts on a daily basis.  There has not been one day where I haven’t struggled, where I haven’t thought hmmmm just one little bite of this won’t hurt much.  I am the queen of excuses when it comes to eating.  We all are here, because we know what this journey entails.  It is not an easy one.  Results will not come easy, nor will they come quick.  There will be several bumps in the road some we will jump over others we will trip over.  Each and every one of us has to live everyday anyways…….why not live it to the best of our abilities.  We all came here looking for someone anyone who could relate to our struggles……..we have been lucky enough to have been blessed with many.  Every pound that has been lost is an inspiration for someone else.  I guess what I really want to say is that giving up on being healthy and active is giving up on yourself.  Each and every last one of you are valued.  Each one of you is worth the hard work and sweat.  I just wanted all of you to know that.  God bless you all and continue to have faith.  Whether it is one pound or 10 pounds it is all an accomplishment.  You should all be proud of yourselves. I know I am.

Well guys…….it has been a rough start of the week for me.  Saturday my hubby cooked out….baby back ribs, homemade mac and cheese, baked beans…..the works.  It was my cheat day, so you know I had a huge plate…..no wait that was an understatement…..I gorged myself.  I haven’t had that much fat and calories in awhile, so on top of feeling really crappy I also gave myself a gall bladder attack.  I vowed to a new start for a new week on Sunday.  I did get up and completed my exercise, but feeling so bad about Saturday decided to continue my binge.  Brought me to Monday….I laid around all day feeling sorry for myself.  Managed to stay within my points, but by 5pm not a lick of exercise.  At least when I was binging on Sat and Sun I still did my exercise.  Almost in tears and feeling completely lost I logged onto here.  Read some blogs and was like what am I doing to myself.  All this hard work is not gonna be undone in two days of bad eatting get the heck up Jennifer!!!!!  I MADE myself go to the gym and felt so much better.  In fact when I weighed myself this morning I actually lost 2 lbs….weird.  Anyways just wanted to get this weekend out and behind me….this is almost like a cleaning of my soul…lol!!! 

Okay guys today I went back to the rec center at U of Michigan where I go to school and also where I get a free membership to the gym.   I haven’t been in months like 5 months or so.  Usually I walk the treadmill for 30 minutes and use the bike for another 30 minutes, which I did today.  Than as I was leaving I caught a glimpse of it out of the corner of my eye….the elliptical machine.  I had tried it once before and couldn’t even go 1 minute.  So today I was like hmmmm why don’t you try it again.  Well, I did and went 5 whole minutes.  I was sweating buckets and my heart was beating, but it was almost fun.  I know 5 minutes may not seem like alot to some of you, but for me it was an eternity.  Tomorrow I am gonna try for 10….this is my new challenge!!!

Today is the anniversary of my one month since joining Buddy Slim.  I said that I would give an update after every month, so that I and others may see just how far I have come.  I am almost in tears by what just 1 month has done for me.  Here are my results………..

June 30 weigh in    365 lbs

July 30 weigh in     344 lbs

That is a total of 21 lbs lost already!!!!

My starting measurements : Bust 50″, Chest  49″, Waist 53″,  Hips 64″, Thighs 28″, Calves 20″, Upper Arm 21″, and Fore Arm 14″.

My measurements today: Bust 49″, Chest 47″, Waist 48″, Hips 56″, Thighs 30″,  Calves 22″, Upper Arm 18″, and Fore Arm 14″.                       

Total of 15 inches gone from my body.  I am figuring those gains in my thighs and calves are from all those Walk Away the Pounds workouts I have done this past month.  I started with the 1 mile and now have worked up to the 2 mile.  Sometimes I do both somedays.  I also have the biggest loser 1 dvd which I just recently started last week. 

I just want to express my sincerest gratitude to everyone here who has made this last month amazing for me.  Without your love, support, and guidance I don’t know where I would be…..probably sitting in front of the t.v. eating chocolate donuts and milk.  This site is such a blessing and all the people in it are too.  I hope for continues success for all of you.  If I at 365lbs can get up off my butt, anyone can.  This site does help work miracles.  I love you all. 

P.S.  coming soon an updated pic

AHHHHHHH….it feels so good to be home.  I worked from 2pm until 9 am this morning, which I really like because I only have to work two days a week to get my 40.  Anyways, I work with the mentally ill so it is sometime challenging.  Well, last night one of the guys Rick decided to stay up until 1am and play his radio extremely loud.  Come 730 this morning he was refusing to get up.  We are supposed to leave the house at 8am to take the guys to their “work”.  Anyways, after having been up all night, him refusing to go until 835am, and than getting a speeding ticket in the work van I was so tempted to stop and grab a huge bag of donuts and some chocolate milk.  I didn’t though I just kept on driving wishing that I had some computer access so I could log on here….lol.  I missed my 10am nail appt and my kids called to say hey the dog pooped on the floor and he ate the cord to not one, but two of my fans.  But here I am still…..smiling now as I recount the first hours of my day.  Not one morsel of “bad” food hit my lips….thank god.